Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Pressure

I had been doing well for the last few weeks. I've had a lot of changes and I felt like I was on top of everything. I've neglected to mention that I have a girlfriend, and I guess that's a pretty crucial detail to bring up. She's awesome, and I told her about my SSA and she seems cool with it. Lately however, all I feel is fear. I fear that she doesn't fully understand what she's gotten into. I fear that I am not getting the emotional connection that I've needed with guys. I'm just scared of everything right now. It's so weird.

Anyway, I don't want to date a guy, but I really need more of a connection with some. Does anyone have any ideas on how to fulfill that need without making drastic changes? Man, I just need a big hug right now.

4 comments:

iwonder said...

I'd totally give you a hug (I could use one too) but I'm in Vienna.

here's a cold, pointy (not warm and fuzzy) e-hug.

It's the best I can do right now.

AttemptingthePath said...

congrats on the girlfriend, if you want to hang out, send me an email attemptingthepath@gmail.com

-L- said...

I wish I were in Vienna. Or where Thrasius is. Sorry my arms don't reach. Good luck to you. Be in touch if you like. I look forward to hearing if you find something helpful (I'm looking for some of that too.)

kittywaymo said...

Hey T! how are ya? it's kittywaymo... thanx for the message, i love your blog and I'm glad we are hanging out in the same blog-o-sphere~ I hope you are having a wonderful 2008 so far~ love, kittywaymo:)

"And behold, others he flattereth away, and telleth them there is no hell; and he saith unto them: I am no devil, for there is none—and thus he whispereth in their ears, until he grasps them with his awful chains, from whence there is no deliverance."